About 4 months ago I had a problem and I didn’t know what to do. So I sought God because I wanted to make the right decision. This wasn’t the first time I’d turned to him for guidance, but this was the first time I’d asked him to speak to me with words. I asked because I had been reading the Old Testament and I noticed that back then when people asked for help God gave them clear signs and instructions. So I thought, he will do it for us now if we but ask. Then I tried it for myself.
One of my favorite scriptures is 2 Timothy 1:7 which says, “For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” God answered me using that verse. I was washing dishes and self analyzing to figure out why I couldn’t decide what to do about my problem even though I knew what I ought to do. I admitted to myself that I was scared. Too scared to make a move. When I acknowledged the fear God said, “I didn’t give you the spirit of fear.” I heard those words echo through my being and then I knew how to solve my problem. Later on, after I had finished the dishes and gone into another room, my soul lit up! I realized that rather than simply having me recite the scripture to myself, God had actually spoken to me. You see, in the bible Paul is writing a letter to Timothy. So 2 Timothy 1:7 is written in third person. But when the scripture came to me while at the sink, God spoke in first person. He used the word, I, while talking to me. That has never happened before and I will never forget it. Futhermore, I obeyed Him and was blessed.
This is a story about forgiveness. Forgiving other people that hurt you is really hard but forgiving yourself is 100 million times harder. Does it make it easier to forgive someone if you don’t really know them or have a deep relationship with them? I think it does. Because you expect the people closest to you to understand, to know what’s okay and what’s not okay. And sometimes those people know and sometimes they don’t. At times they deliberately do things and they don’t care how it affects your life. Still letting go of how they hurt you is not always easy. It is true that you cannot erase your brain, so you may never forget what was done to you. But somehow you have to learn to say to the one that wronged you, “I will pardon you. I will let it go just because you deserve to be pardoned and I cannot grow with this heavy weight on my heart.” You must even say it while gazing in the mirror. And if you don’t appear as a child to your own self—if you don’t admit that you didn’t know what was right for yourself and that you are not perfect, that only God is perfect, then you will not enjoy a day of your life. And that would be a shame. I’m writing to help you release whatever is holding you down and find your way to God. Let Him heal you with a power so refreshing and amazing that you won’t believe the joy though you live it. This story is entitled April Flowers. April flowers after a harsh and dreadful winter. Beautiful, April flowers despite the snow covered ground and bone-chilling air. Spring returned and with flowers. Their colors…brilliant. What was once frosty and gray is lush and warm again. Rebirth and renewal are yours!
Well, it’s been too long for me. I like to post at least once a week. It’s okay though, cause I finished my last writing assignment for the writing course I’ve been taking and I submitted an article to a magazine. Haven’t heard back yet, but I’m hopeful. So while I’m waiting I just want to proclaim how good God is, in case you didn’t know! He works miracles and simply keeps us on a daily basis and that’s a mighty good thing. Join me in giving him some praise.
The Lord has been so good to me. I have new ideas brimming for articles and picture books. Soon, I’ll be setting up a Mat&May store. I’m just blessed with his promises. On top of that, I’ve enjoyed three weeks of summer camp. During two of the three all three children were there having fun while I had appointments with ease and wrote anytime I had to wait anywhere. I’ve accomplished much. Well, I’ll tell you this. The plot for my first children’s story to be released under my company, Matrimony & Mayhem Books is underway. And my editors, Lainey and Lauren say it is great! That Lainey even checks in on my progress to see if I’m working hard enough. What a team!
I picture myself typing away and researching in the library while my three children socialize and learn to follow instructions in school, come September. I have to say. God is good…very, very good. Do you have a testimony today? Holla at me.