I’ll be the first to admit that I never pictured or planned this style of motherhood for myself. I just knew I’d put my all into them and they’d be well cared for. I couldn’t have dreamed of all I would give up and the many hours of worry I would edure while trying to know if I had made a good decision, the best decision or if they would be all right under my guidance. I still sit here hoping the world hasn’t warped me so much that I don’t know what to teach my children. But I digress. For even though it is hard being a mother —-I’ve had one hell of a week with all 3 of my babies being sick. Even still, I have really been enjoying the past month and this period of them being 3, 4, and 5 years old. It’s sweet. And the reason I’m now calling myself spoiled is because of the two hour window of free time 3 days a week. I have totally been enjoying it. But since it was taken away this weekwhen were all too sick to go to school, I was just looking crazy, wondering if I could survive. On top of that I had a deadline to meet for Polly&Meek business. Plus, I didn’t order out on my takeout night because the pediatrician had said to watch their diets closely until they were better. So I cooked. Well in all honesty, I complained to E before the illness jumped off and he chose this week to hook me up with some extra help and a couple of meals. He actually turned the stove on! Of course there was a fair trade involved for those favors. But not what you think. Sex is cheap here, instead I had to pay big time by taking the kids out of the house so he could have some downtime —-after I had already spent way too much time with them.
Sounds crazy but I did it because he did it for me while I sold books two weekends in a row. Also can’t forget last week when I turned 35 and got surprised big time. He called at 9:30am to say he would come home and get the kids while I went out for a spell. Unheard of right? I felt guilty, but I let him go through with it since it was my birthday. I told Meek the whole thing was such a euphorific high that it gave me a tremendous migraine. I had to give up on shopping and come back home. Our plans included dinner later, but I eventually cancelled with the babysitter cause I was still feeling so bad. I took in L in the eating seafood column. Hey, it’s not everyday that your dreams come true. Oh! It was an awesome birthday!
As for today, Eric dressed and ate quickly this morning and it looked like a gym date, only he informed me that he had to go study. I did my Scooby-doo sound, then I remembered — oh yeah grad school! I was growing so accustomed to the extra help and stuff so I didn’t know what to think. I said, Just take all the time you need and go to the gym to if you want.” I had totally practiced that line so it wasn’t even hard to say. You know why I did it? Cause there’s no such thing as just being spoiled in a marriage. You’ve got to give some to get some. It’s easy for me, cause I like where I am right now. And when all the germs are gone and they’re back to normal I want to enjoy some downtime — by myself! If I’m happy they’re happy. Isn’t it the truth?